八十岁的阿公

最近很出名的一个短片，是一伙儿的八十岁阿公们骑电单车环岛。
说人活着就是为了梦想。

这几个星期来，早出晚归，
见习医生们的忙有个模样给你看，没有时间吃午餐，没有时间睡觉。
当医生，怎么讲也不算是梦想。
今天走路时，朋友说：“生活太规律化了，没有意义...”
什么叫有意义？我不懂。
它并不是有一条线画在一张纸上，
线的左边是有意义，右边是每没意义。

梦想应该是偏离正常人所能领悟的，
就像阿公们那样。
但又有多少个八十岁的老人能够完成梦想呢？
而梦想完成了，是不是就叫有意义呢？

我还是不懂。

我会想念colorectal surgery

不知不觉已进入第五个星期了，
来匆匆去匆匆的wardround，
做不完的paperwork，
一切即将告一段落。

突然觉得有点不舍得。
三个interns都很好人，很好相处。
最让人羡慕的，应该就是其中一个intern
宴请我们吃北京烤鸭来慰劳我们吧！
去到paediatric developmental disability，
应该就没有这种福气了。

Prof是有点可怕，
但是他的人也很特别。
尤其喜欢看他生气的时候apply他的anger management technique。
他会说：“I am going to turn off my switch."
重复几遍，直到他可以控制他的气。
他对他的registrar很严，
对学生还不错。

总之，我还是会想念colorectal surgery ^.^

Home sick?

When I was walking home with a friend who just came over to Melbourne to study,
Friend: Do you miss home?
Me: Hmm...it hasn't really been a problem to me...(sounds a bit cold-blooded but it's true though)
Friend: I really miss home. Every time you go back and see your parents, they are getting older and older...That makes me want to spend more time with them.
Me: Ya...I understand that...(trying hard to empathise)
Friend: I wasn't close to them when I was small, but I am getting closer to them as I grow older...
Me: Really? I wasn't close to my parents either...and I don't think I am getting closer to them...(yea...a bit sad...just the way i was brought up)

I don't know why we had this conversation.
I just know her for about an afternoon.
She is nice though.

Sleeps

Even if i sleep 9 hours during weekend,
still can't make an average of 6 hours of sleep per day
=(

Zzzz...

Oh third year!

We have third year med students on our rotation,
I am so proud of them!
One of them managed to get the IV cannulation done today!
That's like much much better than me =P

I was eating lunch with them,
and then when we were about to finish,
I said, "Let's go take a history and then I can sign your log book!"
(p/s: I looked and sounded so excited)
Then one of my colleagues said, "Why are you more excited than them?"

Hmm...I am deprived of history taking and examination for the past 3 weeks,
Yes, I am yearning for one!

I should leave some of the intern job behind and go do my own learning,
but I really pity my interns, they havent had lunches for the past 2 weeks...
I feel bad not helping them...

We make sure patients are on Clexane,
We make sure patients have their TED stokings on,
We make sure they have enough painkillers so they can mobilise,
We monitor them by monitoring the bloods and obs,
"obs stable, afebrile"
"good"

We just never listen to the lungs during wardrounds.
Just don't have the time? Or not necessary unless they are symptomatic?
Hmmm...

We had a very sick colon cancer patient died from PE.
Well, we have tried "our best" to prevent it.

灰色星期五

Colorectal surgery 是个噩梦,
对intern们来说。
永远取悦不了大老爷，因为他的要求太高，
甚至太不合理。
听说大老爷有情绪管理问题，以前会摔东西，
但现在好了些。

星期五，
很好的registrar放假去了，
很神秘的locum registrar请了“病假”。
整个部门由一个parttime的registrar顶替，
太多东西做，很多紧急的病人，很多麻烦的病人，
还有没有预料的死亡，
intern们喘不过气来。

我做完他们交待的paperwork,
五点三，拍拍屁股走人，
可怜的intern们，
还没有吃午餐，
还有做不完的工。

晚上下雨，听说墨尔本淹水。
hmmm...哎...

年龄

intern: how old are you?
me: i am turning 24 this year.
intern: me too. When?
me: this month.
intern: oh, you are older than me. how come?

why do i always need to explain our malaysian education system T.T

关灯的人

如果末日来临，
就让我毁灭吧，
让那个整天把走廊的灯关掉的人活下去。

我没他那么爱地球，
因为那条走廊实在是又长又黑。
恐怖...