时间不够

知识的冲击很大
恍然大悟很有趣
就连打电话给住诊医生都好玩多了
怪了，我不怕他们了
原因是我不再是那个求助的一方
每个个案，就是一个迷
有些几秒看出答案，有些摸不着头脑
人体太妙了！比人妙得多
探讨一些肉眼看不见的事
对生命会有另一种层次的领悟


找回学习的乐趣，即使感觉时间不够，也不是负面的情绪，而是喜悦的
生命可以长一点吗？
我要继续学习。

2014年的尾声

还有不到四个小时，就得和2014年告别。
话说2014，对马来西亚来说是悲痛的一年。马航两架飞机罹难，前几天亚航也出事。而且还水患肆虐。我母校也淹水了。
从来我就认为人生是无常的，天灾人祸是难免的。但厄运接二连三也未免太令人痛心。同时也必须警惕自己，做自己想做的事，爱身边的人，对自己好一点。
我从来没有为自己设下新年resolution， 因为计划永远赶不上变化，随机随缘就好。
期望2015会是顺利的一年。为了training我得搬迁到乡下小镇去工作，在一个人生地不熟的地方自己生活。我总告诉自己，没关系，很多事是冥冥中注定。就像当初命运把我放在Eastern那样，才成就了今天的我。
愿大家平安健康快乐。

圣诞快乐

第一次公共假期肯定有我份。 赖在家听周杰伦，收拾一下屋，点我的香熏， 简单无聊也可以很写意。
或许应该读书。。。
看看吧。。。嘻嘻
圣诞节快乐。
祝大家平安健康。

态度

笑容
是免费的
而且是用之不竭的
为什么省着？
平和
可以让身边的人心情也平和
为什么要对别人呼喝责备？
再厉害再聪明
没有EQ
人缘不好
说难听，有天落难了，别人也只会说活该。
人生不如意事多得是，
每一件都耿耿于怀，埋怨
然后把气发在别人身上
日子怎么过也不会开心吧？

她是个很好的借镜，
她是我绝对不要变成的那个人 :)

4 Weeks into Anatomical Pathology

I have not been studying so hard since medical school - need to brush up on general anatomy at the very least and study on cut up techniques and procedures.


I have not felt so junior/ignorance since third year medical school/clinical year - apart from knowing that I am not colour blind, looking at slides to me just means looking at meaningless colourful pictures with dots while others start babbling some alien languages

I start work at 7:30am every day willingly and stay back until 6pm everyday but do not feel terrible about it - I must be crazy liao


When the siao reg said I need to speed up when cutting because we still have many other specimens to go through - Instead of becoming anxious and scared, I choose to remind myself  my other reg who once told me to "keep calm", and the other reg who said "Don't try to live up to unrealistic expectation and allow others to rush you through a specimen because you got to know what you are doing before you get comfortable. You want to be able to sleep at night after cutting specimens."


I am also thankful to my siao reg. It's because of her, I learnt more in a short period of time. Sometimes I need stress to push me to do better.


As I left work one day feeling stressed out and useless, I saw a doctor at the car park, presumably a registrar of some sort, picking up her phone and asking about the details of patient who was being referred to her, using the wall as the vertical table and starting to write down stuff. I smiled and thought to myself, my day isn't that bad afterall.